It started out overwhelmingly busy after a nice relaxing weekend and it seemed that the week just blew up. A few work cancelations last week meant more work this week, and a frazzled mentality trying to fit in work (3 jobs), personal time and enough time spend with my family and to relax. Then add in extra chores, busy evenings and a muscle spasm in my neck and I am fried already, and it's only Thursday! Oh, and do I mention not losing ANY weight last week.... Grr. Bounced up and down between 2 ounces of weight for a whole week. Not very motivating when I normally lose about 3.5 pounds a week! But I guess letting all this get to me is just a reminder of how many issues/concerns I still need to work on.
But with having my neck spazz out, I was able to take yesterday and fully relax. Like sit on the couch, folding laundry, moving slowly all day relax and didn't feel guilty about it one bit. Having yesterday to regroup has made today even better. I see that the small details in life, which I thought I should focus more on in the past really don't hold that much weight.. Ha! Weight? I see now that it's the big picture, the final goal that is the most important. It is very important to enjoy the road, live it to its fullest, but if a snag happens in the routine, it has to be acknowledged and then let go. Does the fact that I can't get the extra load of laundry done today matter? No I'll do it another day. Does it matter if I need to take a day off work? Nope it doesn't... My services can be done a different day, or they can figure out alternate ways to clean their own homes! I am glad that my mentality on life is evolving. It is helping me to be a calmer person, enjoy life life it should be enjoyed, the big picture in a positive light and let's my family enjoy me also! I usually do get a bit frazzled and crazed if plans or my wants don't happen as I planned. It's been lovely.
Now I have also taken even more on my plate with being a Health Coach wi Take Shape for Life. I am loving my abilities to help others change their lives so far, but a lot of time and mental awareness has been put forth. Adjusting my previous schedule to allow all of this has been difficult, but I know it will come more naturally with time... I just have to give it it's rightful time.
Having these hiccups this week shows me that while I am progressing mentally and physically to a healthier, better me, I still have a long way to go. I can not afford to get distracted. I have done well so far, but not well enough to start slacking off. I need to keep my eye on the prize (healthier/skinnier me, a better family relationship, and better finances which being a Coach is definitely teaching me to handle better), and put myself on auto-pilot so I can continue this journey and finish it to the end, and maintain this positive life choice I know my family and I need.
So after a nice relaxing day yesterday and then beastie time today, I am happy to report my chores did eventually get done, my house is in order, card club went extremely well, and I am finally back on track with TSFL and have lost 2.2 pounds just since Monday! Yay for being on track, not freaking out anymore and being happy, content and less stressed overall. Now just to maintain this attitude and state of mind!
Hopefully this weekend, while it will be busy, will help kick start my brain again into not settling for what I have done so far, and strive for more. Setting goals is good... I need to focus on what kind of goals I want and start chipping away at those goals. I have never been a goal setting person, so trying to figure out what I want out of life alone is difficult enough! I am perfectly happy where I am now, minus a few things that can easily be changed. So I need to put some thought into that...
So onward, to lovely events with friends, family and celebrating Mothers Day! Enjoy everyone, and don't forget to enjoy the roads, but look up and see the beauty of the big picture mostly!
Hanna
